I live in a time warp where nothing makes sense and all your energy goes into surviving. Nothing to spare for finding a way out for now.
So I wait and wonder what happened to us, to the boy who said who will ever look after me? in the voice of an eight-year-old boy who never had a birthday worth remembering. You never knew it but as I held you, I vowed that I would. Maybe Ill never find out why youre afraid of large flowers and dogs and loving someone enough to let them in.
So busy painting a glossy veneer over the sordid past and tarnished present, he forgets how beautiful he is when he lets his guard down. Beautiful and b
Disposable friend
The right fit at the wrong time
Flying out of orbit, we were bound to collide
But how could we have known
That only chaos awaits
A year of sunshine and laughter
But the day needs a night and summer, a winter
A year of raw nerves and awkward caresses
But it wasnt all bad
Hearts full to the brim
Yearning for something more
We gambled our friendship for a chance at ever after
Now that its all over
I miss you my friend
I walked into your empty arms
Thinking they were waiting for me to fill them
Now when I am not in them
I wonder who is
I asked you if it was OK for me to need you
You said just not all the time and so I tried
The only problem with trying not to need you
Is that in the end I wont need you
So, I slipped out of your arms
And waited for you to let go too
Instead you held on
You dont have to say why
Theres just no need
You took your time turning my Xs into ohs
With flickering tongue and inquisitive fingers
X marks the spot and you can find them all in the dark
Unrelenting till I gasped your ohs
Blindfolded and covered in Xs
You kept me coming till I couldnt get enough of the Os
I tried to keep up with the excess but no
I got tangled in your exes and ohs
Your emails used to end with xxxs and ooos
And then nothing but .cold spaces
Oh how I miss the ohs are we exes too now?
Unbidden you wrote back with an infinity of Xs and Os
But you waited too long between ohs
Took too long to lose sight of the exes
So Ive decid
You throw stars at me when you get scared a frightened ninja cloaked in shades of night. But I wont stick around to be stuck like your favourite pin cushion. I know you thought I was made of stone -- nothing more than a beautiful statue until I moved.
It was a gloriously bright day. You held my hand gently in yours and pricked my palm. I will never forget that look of surprise when I flinched. Underneath this hard shell are living cells and they are tired of being popped like plump grapes. But I know something you dont I have a secret weapon.
Sometimes the light glances off the stars stuck in my side and in a f
I used to watch you soar high above the darkness
So you always stayed bathed in moonbeams
Sick of the dark I reached up and you flew me away
You never knew that you saved a life that night
And I never suspected I would love you for it
But I am a beast and your soul is all I crave
I screamed and lashed out
Because love is a foreign language I have never heard
When you sighed and sang your sweet song
My parched mouth devoured every drop
You seemed a bottomless well
And I didnt care if I sucked you dry
I ripped at your wings
just to see if you will let me have them
Not so I can soar without you
But so you can never fly aw
Humble offering
Someday I will give you sunshine in a box
Someday I will give you the stars and moon
But today you will have to be content with my heart
Tarnished and tawdry, it is yours to do with as you wish
Its light has left me and shines only for you now
Snuff it out or bury it in the yard next to your pet hamster
Just dont throw it in the fire
With the countless others
Unwrap my love, untie my trust
Toss them on a pile of nail clippings or slip them into your sock drawer
Just dont throw them in the shredder
With all the others
Dont despair for me
I am happy to roam this heartless dark
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Or not
I never cry after sex
So, I lied
I was embarrassed
And you held me heroically
Why with you and never before?
I love him
I want to believe
I reside in your heart permanently
But the constant mental traffic
Of pretty distractions
Makes me think it is but temporary
He loves me not
You stood guard
Over my topless beached body
Shes mine. So back off
Your watchful stare proclaimed
I felt beautiful and precious
He loves me
You would like to stay
But something calls you away
Ive heard this song before
So many times
It breaks my resolve
I love him not
You say me
Something whispered
Secrets shimmer behind her camouflage, straining to be voiced
She sighs and resigns to a whisper
Barely audible, the words swell
Pulsing inside my skull, poised to crash
Deafening, the sonic boom erases all comprehension
Silence casts its sticky web
Trapping us in time and space
Stillness on the surface as I go under
Drowning in an echo of whispers
Grasping at picket fences and apple pies
I feel her slow gaze closing in
Crushed by the weight of her trust
Given but never sought, I wasnt ready
No escape now, my mind recoils
Silently snarling you had no right!
Her knowing smile w
Surface
I melt into you warm and formless
Waiting for you to dissolve my defenses
Heavy in my arms I feel us sink
Baited breath, I wait...
You walk me home
But hesitate on the step
You come up
But stop at the door
I reach out
But hesitate at your touch
I strip off my clothes
But hide my hurt
Empty hearts cant fill your soul
Full bodies cant feed this hunger
Reach out my love
Open the door and enter without hesitation
Your place is here
Warm yourself by my fire
Sink into me and hold tight
Baited breath, I wait...
Skin
Light on dark, intertwined
Mouths seeking, bodies writhing
Eyes meet and fingers touch
A sweet symphony of sensations
Two move as one
Lock and key
Opening and closing
In exquisite ecstasy
In a foreign land, strangers find bliss
Aware of the outside world
Only as it intrudes intermittently
Traffic, chatter, thunder and lightning
Collide and ebb
Blurry waves on a perfect shore
Paradise exists wherever they unite
Engrossed in the study of a silent language
Touch and taste only they can decipher
An infinite horizon of sated bliss stretches on
Painting a glossy veneer over the tomorrows
Blind to the existence of time and
Sleep
Nerves raw, mind racing
I tremble under your piercing stare
Do you see my imperfections?
Unsure of your lead, I close my mind
Stumbling and blind
I follow your voice into the unknown
Unwillingly I hurtle through the mirror
Will you find me on the other side?
Unfamiliar scapes greet my unsteady fingers
Broken, I await the onslaught
Tired of fighting, I fall
I submit shaking at the knees
Exposed and small
I crawl into the space you create
In your hands I lay
Painfully aware that you see me as I am
I wasnt expecting mercy
I wasnt expecting kindness
Why do you give these gifts to me?
With new eyes, I se
Chapter 1
The buttons on her blouse strained every time her heels made contact with the pavement. Running in heels is never a bright idea especially in the rain but what choice did she have there wasnt exactly time to stop and take them off before fleeing her attackers. She wasnt sure how far they were planning to go after snatching her purse but, for once, she wasnt even a little curious. Her journalistic nature, however, was desperately trying to reconstruct their faces in her mind adeptly flipping through features like a criminal sketch artist.
There were two of them which for some reason appealed t
Chapter 2
When she came to, her head was swimming and there was a paramedic hovering over her. Are you alright miss? he asked. Yeah, Im fine, she mumbled and she tried to stand up. You shouldnt get up right away. Sit down for a sec and just breath. It was the tall guy she remembered from the store. Im fine thanks, she said stubbornly. She wobbled to her feet and felt his hand slip around her waist. Hey lady, I cant keep breaking your fall all night. This way Ill be sure it doesnt happen, he said in response to her questioning and slightly hostile
The Oracle
Darkness holds no allure for me
For I know it intimately
I have walked its inky black hallways
And wandered through the cobweb ridden doors
Long forgotten by time
It is the light that affronts my senses
The wretched lies it spawns
Mortals cling to it
Like a gossamer lifeline
Like a long lost lover
Like a forsaken saviour
I see it all unfold
The future untold
An endless litany
Of death and despair
For it is the desperate that seek me out
The contented are oblivious to the hypnotic draw
Its the ones that can not accept their fate who succumb
Doomed dreamers
Errant moralists
Repentant Judases
I have neve
Something whispered
Secrets shimmer behind her camouflage, straining to be voiced
She sighs and resigns to a whisper
Barely audible, the words swell
Pulsing inside my skull, poised to crash
Deafening, the sonic boom erases all comprehension
Silence casts its sticky web
Trapping us in time and space
Stillness on the surface as I go under
Drowning in an echo of whispers
Grasping at picket fences and apple pies
I feel her slow gaze closing in
Crushed by the weight of her trust
Given but never sought, I wasnt ready
No escape now, my mind recoils
Silently snarling you had no right!
Her knowing smile w
Or not
I never cry after sex
So, I lied
I was embarrassed
And you held me heroically
Why with you and never before?
I love him
I want to believe
I reside in your heart permanently
But the constant mental traffic
Of pretty distractions
Makes me think it is but temporary
He loves me not
You stood guard
Over my topless beached body
Shes mine. So back off
Your watchful stare proclaimed
I felt beautiful and precious
He loves me
You would like to stay
But something calls you away
Ive heard this song before
So many times
It breaks my resolve
I love him not
You say me
Humble offering
Someday I will give you sunshine in a box
Someday I will give you the stars and moon
But today you will have to be content with my heart
Tarnished and tawdry, it is yours to do with as you wish
Its light has left me and shines only for you now
Snuff it out or bury it in the yard next to your pet hamster
Just dont throw it in the fire
With the countless others
Unwrap my love, untie my trust
Toss them on a pile of nail clippings or slip them into your sock drawer
Just dont throw them in the shredder
With all the others
Dont despair for me
I am happy to roam this heartless dark
An e